The Enemy

After graduation, we had a long long holiday. My friends got four months of holiday. Some of them must go out of the country a month before college starts. Some of them who stayed, are chasing something called 'SBMPTN'. I, myself got five months of holiday. It was pretty fun though. I thought I could do something useful. Hmm. Get a job? Start a business? Learn what I want? Read some books? Make a film? or, all of them at once?

Some of them I already succeeded. I've read so many books. I've learn more about films. I've got a job with my friends, the advertisement video. I've got a new job tomorrow, actually, it's not a job, I'm just helping a friend. But what about the rest of them? I'M FAILING!

In some earlier post, I mentioned about my business with my friends which was selling milk pie. Turns out, no one wants to do it anymore. Some of my friends still wanted to enjoy the holiday and some of them think it was too risky. I too got a bit lazy.

How about making a film? That is what I'm working on. But there are too much things that must be done. I need a screenplay, I need actors, I need people who can give me money, I need people who can hold my microphone high enough. I'm afraid.

But moments ago, I opened one of my book, Steal Like An Artist by Austin Kleon. It was my first English-written book that I bought. And shit I was an idiot. The book opened my mind.

The real enemy is yourself. It's the worst thing, you have to face 'him/her' almost every time you do something. Your mind screws your mental. You become crazy, scared, afraid, and lazy. 'He/she' beats you up without laying a single punch.

So how do you beat 'him/her' back?

DO WHAT YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO DO! Don't think about anything else! Just think that you are going to finish the job. Ignore all the pessimistic thinking. Don't waste time! Make a deadline! Make a system! Make it clean!

Eventually your hard work, even if it was only a small job, can satisfy you with a big smile on your face. Your heart will be calm.

I was an idiot enough not to remember what I've read. I am ashamed. But what I will do now is to continue my work and I won't let 'him' beat me up again! EVER!

Thanks for reading.

Good read, ladies and gentlemen.